Desember 02, 2016

Our Father

My father..
He's not like most people..
He could not tolerate the imperfections of her children..
He always expect perfection..
He always wants perfection..
He was always comparing us to other people's children..
Still, she remained my father..
He is still my hero..
And anyway, we can not be perfect..
We can not be like other people's children..
We can only be ourselves..
Even though we have tried many times..
Only to be perfect in the eyes of our father..

And now he is angry to me. He hates me.

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Oktober 16, 2016

New Begining

So now is a new begining..
That's all..

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Januari 21, 2016

POUR PAPA

Barusan nemuin ini... Pas banget timing nya..

😞😞😞
😢😢
😭😟
😶😶😶
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Pour Papa, je ne sais pas comment faire vous me entendez. Mais, je suis toujours mal au moment où votre fils, mon petit frère, fait de vous en colère contre moi. Je ne sais pas comment vivre. Je suis presque fin. Je continue à penser que je ne vais pas survivre. Parce qu'il est trop intelligent pour toujours me faire sentir pire. Mais la chose qui me rend triste est que vous savez, mais, vous êtes debout garder avec lui. Bien que je ne reste personne avec moi. Pa, je suis actuellement fatigué. Je veux prendre un repos. Donc, vous ne devez pas se lasser d'être en colère contre moi. Parce que je suis inutile, et je ne suis rien. Je veux mourir, pa. Tue moi s'il te plait.

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Dari Anas bin Malik radhiyallahu ‘anhu, Nabi shallallahu ‘alaihi wa sallam bersabda,

ثَلاَثُ دَعَوَاتٍ لاَ تُرَدُّ دَعْوَةُ الْوَالِدِ ، وَدَعْوَةُ الصَّائِمِ وَدَعْوَةُ الْمُسَافِرِ

Tidak doa yang tidak tertolak yaitu doa orang tua, doa orang yang berpuasa dan doa seorang musafir.” (HR. Al Baihaqi dalamSunan Al Kubro. Syaikh Al Albani mengatakan hadits ini shahih sebagaimana dalam As Silsilah Ash Shahihah no. 1797).

Muhammad bin Isma’il Al Bukhari membawakan dalam kitab Al Adabul Mufrod beberapa riwayat mengenai doa orang tua. Di antara riwayat tersebut adalah: Abu Hurairah berkata, ”Nabi shallallahu ’alaihi wa sallam bersabda,

ثَلاَثُ دَعَوَاتٍ مُسْتَجَابَاتٌ لَهُنَّ لاَ شَكَّ فِيْهِنَّ دَعْوَةُ الْمَظْلُوْمِ وَدَعْوَةُ الْمُسَافِرِ وَدَعْوَةُ الْوَالِدَيْنِ عَلىَ وَلَدِهِمَا

“Ada tiga jenis doa yang mustajab (terkabul), tidak diragukan lagi, yaitu doa orang yang dizalimi, doa orang yang bepergian dan doa kejelekan kedua orang tua kepada anaknya.” (Diriwayatkan oleh Al Bukhari dalam Al Adabul Mufrod no. 32. Dikatakan hasan oleh Syaikh Al Albani dalam Shahih Al Adabul Mufrod no. 24). Hadits ini menunjukkan bahwa doa jelek orang tua pada anaknya termasuk doa yang mustajab. Hal itu dibuktikan dalam kisah Juraij (Diriwayatkan oleh Al Bukhari dalam Al Adabul Mufrod no. 33. Dikatakan shahih oleh Syaikh Al Albani dalam Shahih Al Adabul Mufrod no. 25)
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Renungkan dan ingat semuanya ya, pa..
Terima kasih untuk semua..
Tanpa papa aku ga bisa bertahan sampai hari ini..
Whatever you do, you are always be my hero..
Because from you, I could hear the first Adzan.. And i also hoping that i could hear the last Adzan that you whisper on my ear...

اَللَّهُمَّ اغْفِرَلِيْ وَلِوَالِدَىَّ وَٰرْحَمْهُمَا كَمَارَبَّيَانِيْ صَغِيْرًا

Amin.

April 15, 2015

Empty

The wind is blowing
But nothing I feel
Inside my heart
It is empty

People are talking
But nothing I hear
Inside my head
It is empty
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So, Today.

I was fine this -early- morning..
Then I was going to college when suddenly my phone was ringing..
I got a message..
But that wasn't what I want.. That bitch text me... A "birthday wishes"..
SHIIITT

So.. i really want to apologize to people (Friends, Family) i hurt today.. I know you mean good.. but im sorry i wasnt in my good mood..

Thank you alot for every single words, gifts, and celebration you made and you'll make for me today and tonight..

I thank for having you all in my life..

Greeting-

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And i thank to the bitch who broke my birthday.. Fuck you!!!
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April 13, 2015

DEAR PEOPLE

I never thought i'd live this life like this.. I never wanted it..
Live without the person i love.. I'd never imagine it..
I didn't want to live without her..
A mother figure.. I'll always need.. She is the only one i have..
And I never wanted to take one ,ore step without her..

And now it has been two years after she passed away..
Right until now.. Im stilll hoping that this is all just a dream.
I hope that one day I will wake up and she'll standing right in front of me..
Standing there with her smile and make me calm.. And wipe away my tears..

I'd never imagine how to spend my life.. I just let the time passed me day by day..
I wanna go..

And to be noted..
I dont wanna have birthday.. I dont wanna celebrate mine either..
No more  birthday..

Why?
Because.. Why would I celebrate it without the one who gave me birth?
And why I celebrate it when everyone tryna screw me out??

I'd say thanks alot for the saying ...but please,...
Can you please stop saying it?

Because actualy it makes me mad so much..

I dont have birthday anymore since my moma passed away..


Greeting..
-L.G.-
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Maret 23, 2015

.....

Maybe im going to write some story in this blog.  I mean.. short story or some sci-fi story.....

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Desember 16, 2014

Entah Kapan

Entah kapan, tapi aku belum mengerti
Entah kapan, tapi aku masih bermimpi
Entah kapan, tapi aku lelah sekali
Entah kapan, tapi aku 'tak akan bangun lagi

Entah kapan, tapi hidup ini begitu berarti
Entah kapan, tapi aku masih ingin disini
Entah kapan, tapi aku masih berlari

Entah kapan, tapi waktuku pasti tiba nanti
Entah kapan, tapi aku tidak berjanji akan kembali
Entah kapan, tapi aku tidak berjanji kita akan bertemu lagi