Empty

The wind is blowing
But nothing I feel
Inside my heart
It is empty

People are talking
But nothing I hear
Inside my head
It is empty

So, Today.

I was fine this -early- morning..

Then I was going to college when suddenly my phone was ringing..

I got a message..

But that wasn't what I want.. That bitch text me... A "birthday wishes"..

SHIIITT

So.. i really want to apologize to people (Friends, Family) i hurt today.. I know you mean good.. but im sorry i wasnt in my good mood..

Thank you alot for every single words, gifts, and celebration you made and you'll make for me today and tonight..

I thank for having you all in my life..

Greeting-

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And i thank to the bitch who broke my birthday.. Fuck you!!!

DEAR PEOPLE

I never thought i'd live this life like this.. I never wanted it..
Live without the person i love.. I'd never imagine it..
I didn't want to live without her..
A mother figure.. I'll always need.. She is the only one i have..
And I never wanted to take one ,ore step without her..

And now it has been two years after she passed away..
Right until now.. Im stilll hoping that this is all just a dream.
I hope that one day I will wake up and she'll standing right in front of me..
Standing there with her smile and make me calm.. And wipe away my tears..

I'd never imagine how to spend my life.. I just let the time passed me day by day..
I wanna go..

And to be noted..
I dont wanna have birthday.. I dont wanna celebrate mine either..
No more  birthday..

Why?
Because.. Why would I celebrate it without the one who gave me birth?
And why I celebrate it when everyone tryna screw me out??

I'd say thanks alot for the saying ...but please,...
Can you please stop saying it?

Because actualy it makes me mad so much..

I dont have birthday anymore since my moma passed away..


Greeting..
-L.G.-

.....

Maybe im going to write some story in this blog.  I mean.. short story or some sci-fi story.....

Entah Kapan

Entah kapan, tapi aku belum mengerti
Entah kapan, tapi aku masih bermimpi
Entah kapan, tapi aku lelah sekali
Entah kapan, tapi aku 'tak akan bangun lagi

Entah kapan, tapi hidup ini begitu berarti
Entah kapan, tapi aku masih ingin disini
Entah kapan, tapi aku masih berlari

Entah kapan, tapi waktuku pasti tiba nanti
Entah kapan, tapi aku tidak berjanji akan kembali
Entah kapan, tapi aku tidak berjanji kita akan bertemu lagi 

Maafkan aku, Ma.

Ma..
Aku sangat sakit sekarang..
Papa, adek, omer, dan teman-temanku..
Semuanya sudah berubah sekarang..

Ma..
Aku sendirian..
Tidak ada orang yang berdiri untuk berjuang bersamaku..

Ma..
Maafkan aku yang tidak bisa membuatmu bangga..

Ma..
Aku kangen mama..
Aku ingin memeluk mama..
Aku ingin menangis dipelukanmu, ma..

Ma..
Maafkan aku, ma..
Maafkan aku..

Aku belum mampu..
Dan mungkin tidak akan mampu membanggakanmu, ma..
Maafkan aku..
Maaf..

Pa

Pa..
Pernah ga sekali saja papa sadar bahwa orang itu merusak hidupku dan keluarga papa?

Pa..
Pernah ga sekali saja papa sadar seberapa sering papa menyakiti hati mama dulu?

Pa..
Aku juga wanita. Aku mengerti rasanya sakit hati.

Pa..
Aku seorang anak yang jatuh dan tenggelam karena hidupku yang telah rusak.

Pa..
Aku seorang anak yang menyaksikan hancurnya kasih sayang dalam suatu keluarga.

Pa..
Aku sudah putuskan..
Aku akan mengakhiri semuanya.

Aku menyayangimu.
Aku ingin menjadi berguna.
Tapi, jika aku tidak bisa berguna untuk orang tuaku,
Aku ingin berguna untuk orang lain.

Maafkan aku, pa.

Dieu

Dieu
Forgive me
Forgive me
Forgive me
Forgive me
Because i cut the time you've given to me
Im sorry Dieu
Please forgive me!
Dieu please forgive me!
Forgive me because this revenge i cant forget
Because this hate i cant erase

Forgive me Dieu
Forgive me
I dont wanna live again dieu
Please kill me!
I dont wanna see her in my life dieu
I can't

Please dieu i beg you
Help me dieu
Ya allah
Kill me
Please i beg you
Dieu